I always have a single combat with memory. I am not the only one though. Not being a good student during school days makes things worse for me, a lot of day dreaming is what I did during my school life. Visions of spaceflight, aliens, super cars, superheroes and many more things were always occupying my mind. When I was near the end of my school life I learned a very new thing, which actually made me look more of an idiot. I leaned how to learn. I also learned that what we are doing during studies is learning to identify things. Names and Quantities (I take Time as a quantity as well) are what everything is about and ironically most of us aren’t good at both. I kept learning and forgetting most of it the next day. That is when I realized that my life is going to suck because of this. Then began my never-ending search for a remedy to fix this Problem. The lyrical ‘Knowledge is power’ is true, specially if you know what knowledge you need, but if you forget most of it the next day then it’s a huge waste of time and you would end up with a job of physical labor with not a very good pay. I was never good in general, I am considered as slow, a below average person who hated reading, hated maths, hated history and arts (which includes almost everything) during school years discovered as a shock that one needs all of that to some extent for a better life. The bad habits which I perfected over the decade was now a personality and a focused strong-willed mind was a wishful thinking for me. I saw a genuinely born inferior person in the mirror who would have been eaten by a predator if not for the presence of a human civilization. Problems came at me, and I failed at all of them making myself more miserable over time.
English is not my first language, it has a western glamour attached to it specially if you know the American accent, or the sexy British one. I thought about learning English through the school method, to add some glitter on my overly dull personality and probably get some recognition, I regretted it instantly, as I couldn’t remember it all. The approach to language learning is still wrong in our education system world-wide I believe. I finally resorted to dabble myself in the culture of English speakers, but since I wasn’t able to go there, I could only do the initiation with cartoons and movies and books. It took years, but now I make sense most of the time. My lameness had no end and I wasted the coming decade in day dreaming for a better life and not touching a single book. The same faces were around me, same kind of conversations, nothing new ever came, no revelation, no peek at the world, nothing at all. I was living in a bubble of my own demise. I wanted to be a story-teller, how could I if I don’t know the language at its core? Then I thought, if I read how people write then I can learn that style as they would write the way they generally speak, in fact that is even better because people give more thought to what they write. I started books, novels first then other random books about all kind of subjects. Then I realized that everything I read, the knowledge which I want is centered around something all the time (Yup! Socrates’ analogy of the cave people suits me, I understood shadows instead of reality). A central topic with a name of some number attached to identify some attribute about it. I also found out I was not good at abstract subject matters. I lack the capability to perceive the intangible.
Everyone has different process of perception, the way we perceive the world depends on our memory and our memories evolve better according to our perception. We are still armed with predatory instincts. Often time we are hostile or defensive when we meet someone new and I think this minute and innocent looking feature of ours is the cause for disagreements globally and cause for wars and conflicts world-wide. Small things decide the big things, just like weak gravity creates a Singularity. There was a very small thing missing in my knowledge repository, with awareness that we perceive only the fraction of the whole and that each observation has different interpretation according to our state of mind I was both hopeful and terrified about the prospect of finding a way to understand the process of remembering things. Language as an Identification and Imitation Protocol can do wonders when done write. The best approach was using analogy.
Analogy is natures tool of progress. How cells decided to form colonies making multi-cellular beings, such as us, with only the capability to perceive threat and food in close proximity is amazing. It is a necessity for complexity, for creating unimaginable beauties using limited building blocks. This Universe is so vast and unknown that it shadows the ‘Purpose‘ with absolute perfection. And realizing how insignificant we are compared to the cosmic scale, it is better we all have our own purpose in life. That is how awesome civilizations and cultures are made. Analogy can be seen everywhere, because the universe is decentralized, which lets insignificant things have a unique identity. From fractals to how DNA mutates. The amazing thing is how nature is an instruction itself to create nature, and this rhythmic process recursively keeps on going, creating things beyond us, even with self similarity. Memory needs an analogy by becoming an analogy itself, an instruction to encode itself. The trick was to find a way to link what we perceive and what we learn to make an experience. And if the experience can be explained as the same experience, mission accomplished. I did succeed somewhat, now I remembered dates well, numbers in general, I even learned how to manipulate absolutely intangible abstract ideas. It was like I just discovered how to do philosophy. ‘Chomsky’s’ Universal Language does work if you know the ‘how to?’ of it to some extent. I still don’t have a proper block for perceiving names, it’s not easy to do when you read about people without knowing somethings about them, face being the important thing, and resort to allotting a similar image to most identities. Reading novels rich with characters and distinct personalities help with that. I think this is the reason we are so fond of stories. They help us improve our perception about people, places and cultures, they help us identify them and in turn identify ourselves with them. So if you aren’t good at names and numbers, don’t be too critical about that moving towards bashing your useless head. Our mind learns how to acquire information efficiently according to our likes and dislikes, all we need is to understand that and the link will form automatically leading to an experience.
Again, this is my personal experience, my desperate search for an efficient memory to remember things. We all are different, what I mentioned here can entirely be wrong for you. I hope you enjoyed this post. Thank you for your time.