Cosmic horrors of our world

I’m an avid reader of stories themed around cosmic horror, where our existence is so insignificant, that it doesn’t matter if anything unthinkable happens to us. That always makes me wonder about some form of justice to provide some closure, unfortunately, there isn’t one. The most unthinkable deeds are a design of humans, incidents which violate us emotionally, make us feel ashamed and helpless to be aware that there was nothing we could do.

Disclaimer : What I’m writing here is not meant to hurt anyone, it’s not in any manner intended as a mockery or insults, these are my feelings which I’m sharing. I apologize if you feel bad reading this post.

India has a serious problem, it stems from old beliefs which are not in anyway fit to go along with progress. On the social media my nation does not have a good reputation. Millions of hard working people are putting their utmost to build a nation, hoping that they would set an example, that through sheer will and dedication anything can be achieved. But it takes only a handful to tarnish that hard work. Puts a bad name to an entire nation, its people and its culture, a place which was culturally open to the world ages gone by.

For a girl, there might be unknown monsters lurking behind any face, she can never know who it would be. There’s the cosmic horror when some sick excuse of a human being robs her of her dignity and cowardly scars her in more horrific ways both mentally and physically.

For an innocent child this gets even more chilling, when a stranger or even a known face can become a death of the child’s innocence. As a father, I’m somewhat guilt ridden to bring my child into this word. Once I had a nightmare that I lost her, I was trying to search for her everywhere, I woke up emotionally broken, cried with relief when I found her sleeping soundly. I held her hand, looked after her all night, scared that if I sleep the nightmare would haunt me again.

What I felt that night is only a fraction those parents, who face the pain of such immense loss everyday, whose children have become prey to some monsters. But I realized, I can only survive the nightmare, I can’t face such an injustice towards my child, my wife, my sister, my parents or any of my loved ones. But I know, that my daughter might have a difficult world when I’ll not be there.

It’s not a question of why those humans can’t control their urges, stopping themselves from crossing the thin line of becoming an agent of cosmic horror. The better one is why they come to the edge in the first place? The answer lies in very simple beliefs. Beliefs which are needed to go away. Belief that law is only maintained by police or courts of law in the first place, instead of believing that law is enforced by civil people. And it’s not easy to be civil. That is an empathy which needs to be seeded during the early ages.

In todays world it is enough for a girl to be just a girl, she has to be both, a girl and a boy, in her mind, same thing applies to a boys as well. One needs the sight and perspective of the other. That’s how a civil society is seeded where gender is not a classification, rather a resource towards something greater.

Today in the news I read about a tribal man being murdered by civil people, he was beaten because a sick mob thought it’s fine to harm that person, what he did was steal food, in a country where food is a basic right, ironic. Imagine what went through his mind. It breaks my heart only to imagine a fraction of it. The loneliness, degradation, disrespectful, humiliation and constant fear of what would happen next, while one of the depraved and sick person took a selfie with the victim. He died painfully, whats even more heartbreaking is that he might have been hungry, but he vomited before collapsing, he had to throw up before his death. All this because of something so insignificant, which can easily be overlooked and probably dealt with kindness and help. He’ll never get justice for the crimes against him. It doesn’t matter what he was, he didn’t deserve what happened to him.

This is not what civil people do, they don’t rape women thinking they are objects of pleasure and weak to prey upon, they don’t harm innocent children and they don’t perform a sick act of mob lynching.

We are going to leave a broken world to our children, they’ll unjustly pay for our sins. Makes me wonder, if the authors of cosmic horror genre used humans to create their monsters, Lovecraft somewhat did with his racial bias, and he did it very well. And when you realize that the monsters do lurk in humans, all you could do is feel ashamed and insignificant, there is just no closure.

It’s going to take thousands of years for us humans to accept the simplest of things, strong empathy, which seems to be running on trial version in our minds, but those of us who have it do cry helplessly, seeing this world getting out of control and into the hands of hopeless madness.

I just wanted to share my feelings, because the news these days makes me sad and worry alot. Please be safe and look after your loved ones. Again I apologize if my post hurts you in anyway.